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Since the "clunk" on the head,, I have had an addition and change in the direction of my creative passion and interests. Prior head injury, I was primarily passionate about graphic arts, and illustration. I was mainly pursuing a career in art licensing working with pastels and colored pencil. I never thought of painting as a medium for myself and I was not interested in the fine arts as a career. But, something changed in me after the injury, some thing that I do not have an explanation for. Although, I still working on illustration and graphics, I have begun to furiously start painting and working in mixed media. The ideas for painting have been coming from my heart. Some time soon after the injury, I signed up for a painting, drawing and watercolor class which was "odd" for me, and although I was painting still lives in class, which I now loved (also odd for me) I was painting images from a deeper place in my heart at home from a deeper place in my heart. You can see some of these still life paintings here and my fantasy paintings here.
After being "clunked" on the head, I have found that I want to create more meaningful and thoughtful images and pieces of art. I am much more interested in expressing my emotions in my work. I feel compelled to express my deeper feelings, thoughts and ideas. I have made changes and choices in the ideas for paintings and mixed media works and they have also taken a turn in subject matter. Although, I have always been strongly interested in concept and ideas, I have now become interested in expression of feelings and life experiences. This is an amazement to me. I have been shocked at the depth of my despair at times that has been coming out of my heart and soul and portrayed in my work. I find myself compelled now to express not only my joyful and exuberant feelings but now my sorrow, depression, pain and challenging feelings about my life in a way that I did not know existed. I am having to face and question some of my experiences of my life presently and as most artists do at some time, I am also facing experiences from my childhood traumas. (UGGHH!!! this is a topic that in full is still too deep to share here). Although I am not one to often wear my deep feelings of sorrow on my sleeve, and share it with others, I am for some reason expressing it in my paintings and art. Go figure!
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
As I have been wanting to do, I would like to share some more info with you about the head injury I had some 3 years ago. In a nutshell, I had a huge, at least 7-10 lb. ceramic vase/vessel fall on the top of my head or "clunked" me on the head, while I was loading some pottery on a wobbly shelf. If you are interested to learn more about how it happened, check out the post in my blog MIND GIGGLES TM. There you will get the details of the accident before and after it happened.
So as you see, things have changed creatively for me and I am just hanging on for the ride. I wonder if anyone has experienced this same sort of shift in consciousness and focus from an accident or head injury? I was "clunked" on the left side on top of my head and since I did not show signs of a concussion, it appeared that nothing was injured internally. The only signs and symptoms are these changes in my obsession with painting and mixed media, and a change in my perception of color. which I talk about it in my blog MIND GIGGLES TM So, as I have said, "Is my huge obsession with painting a coincidence or a direct result from being "clunked" on the head from a 6 lb ceramic vase? You be the judge."
Saturday, August 6, 2011
|JOYFUL AND BLISS|
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This artist does his mixed media work on masonite and canvas and then seals them in resin to capture the delightful fantasy design. He was so gracious to talk with Donna and I about his work and his studio as well as offering some insight into how he creates his work. He also let us in on a tiny secret about how and where he gets his prints made. So cool of him! He lives close to the Jersey Shore, about 20 minutes from my home town. So, we immediately shared a connection. Beach people love other beach people. His studio and gallery are in the same town as my niece, so when I am down that way I am going to stop in to see his studio with my niece or brother. (he had some totally creative art pieces and I'd love to share them with you, when he says "go".
Donna and I enjoyed ourselves so much and I have to express how INSPIRED and MOTIVATED I felt. I was motivated before, but this event pushed it up to the next level. Viewing all the ranges of art in the galleries and on the sidewalk was such a creative boost for both of us. I realized that I need to go out to these events more and let inspiration tap into all the art that's out there for me to absorb.
My friend Donna and I had our first night out as firends since we met in watercolor class three years ago. We became instant friends and it's funny because we look alike and are about the same height. We've taken some painting classes after watercolor class and we really have a great time in class. We've both been saying that we want to get together out of class and attend First Friday and also, go out and paint some landscapes. So, we finally hooked up and had a fun time.
If you are an artist and live near Philadelphia, stop by First Frtiday, especially when the weather is nice. You will be inspired and excited about getting up your easel or desk and start painting.
|THE FLUTE PLAYER|
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Monday, August 1, 2011
I wanted to share with you that I am learning that as I proceed with my blogging, I am finding that I am having trouble focusing in on my creative voice. I seem to be all over the place lately, and unable to focus on one thing. I've been wanting to do everything my heart conjoures up creatively and I realize that there is not enough time or energy to literally do everything I want to do. I wonder and am baffled how people are just able to focus on one thing and stick with it for along period of time? What I've been discovering is that the more in truth I seem to be, the easier the words and thoughts seem to flow. They also seem to make sense to me however, I fear the truth in art and in blogging, in many ways because it is such a vulernable and scary place to be in. I want to share so many things through my art, but at times I am afraid of what the "truth in art" really means. I hope that as I continue to blog and create there will be a merging of the two and a sense of focus will awaken in me. I wait and hope to find a song in my soul.
I've wanted to post up some of my paintings that I've done over the past 3 years related to my Fantasy Collection. I have been adding paintings to the collection and I am finding that my style seems to change from textured to smooth and back to textured again. My subject matter and theme has seemd to change as well as style.
I thought I'd post my older paintings up a little at a time, meeting up to my most recent work.
|TIME TO OPEN UP|
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